Whatever struggle you might be facing, keep your heart and your mind open. God might try to minister to you in something as simple and as ordinary as a butterfly!
In July of 2003, my world as I knew it fell completely apart. My marriage of 20 years was at a major crossroads, and I was unsure whether God wanted me to stay and try and work things out or if he wanted me to move on. During this time I was scheduled to be in the mountains in Colorado for a seminar for Christian artists and writers. Thinking about all the mountaintop experiences in the bible, I was sure I would find my answer out there!
One afternoon during the conference, I was sitting on a rock by a beautiful mountain stream writing songs. As I was writing I looked up and saw a beautiful butterfly just dancing in the wind right in front of me. It stayed there for the longest time, and I was completely mesmerized by its beauty as I kept staring and staring at it.
As I sat there, God spoke to my heart, saying, “You are that butterfly, and you’re going to be okay because I’m right here with you,” and I was filled with an amazing sense of peace. I still didn’t know the fate of my marriage, but I knew I was going to be okay either way. Throughout the next year, my marriage did fall apart and I went through a very painful divorce. The incredible thing was at just the moment I needed it most, God would send me a beautiful butterfly, providing me the encouragement and strength I needed to get through the hurt and hopelessness I was feeling.
I was remarried in August of 2005 to a wonderful, Godly man who supports me and this crazy music thing 100 percent! My life is very blessed as I am living out my dream and my calling of doing music and ministry full-time. I still feel God’s presence and love every time I see a butterfly and give Him thanks for His wonderful gift to me.